Bagaimana
rasanya ketika tak ada sandaran, tempat kau mencurahkan seluruh ego mu?
Kau pikir kau
bisa seenaknya begitu saja menggunakan aku?
Membodohiku
sehingga bisa saja aku menganggap diriku sampah?
Lihat
saja apa kau bisa tidur tenang malam ini?
Lihat
saja, aku akan berhenti dari kekonyolan yang sudah aku ciptakan sendiri.
Menganggap kau menyukaiku, namun ternyata tidak, namun seakan kau memberikan
celah diantara ketidak mungkinan itu. Atau itu hanya imajinasiku saja.
What do you
want?
Please, don’t
get me wrong. I’m not interested to a type of arrogant and jerk like you are. But,
unfortunately my heart can’t handle this one. It’s still trembling, wondering why it happen every
time when you are around. Until
now, I’m looking for any
effort so that I can dump you easily, letting myself step ahead from you is my
happiness.
Easily you
come, then leave, then come again for a specific reason, or need a help, then
leave again then come,
leave, come, leave until third war world happened. Your habits
just saying what you want to say, judging every particular person with their
matters, stick out of several things, and laughing somebody because he or she
is weird in your perspective. I wanna
free, from this pain. I will never be my own if I still beside you and make sure
my appereance was good, or Have I wore something beautiful just to please you (read:
I can’t be an ugly person in front of you).
Honestly
2 years I have spent with useless love one side and now, let me be free. I
wanna find someone who accept me just the way I am, and never ask me to be the
others, the one who appreciate what I wanna do, understand what I’m supposed to
be. Someone whom I love and who love me back. Yeah exactly. Because I’m just
tiring enough to get tired, because every time I move, how pitiful I am stuck
in wrong train again and again then get lost in somewhere chill. Light me, open
my heart with that key.
That
key, I once sent it to you in our chat back then. Ahaaa! Let me guess, you just
don’t have any idea about what I’m talking about right? Lol
Perfect.
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